Why not me?

Hi Lovers!

So if you have been reading my blogs, you probably are catching on to the fact that I am a very flawed person. I have many insercurities and hang ups. I can admit it. Which afterall...isn't that the first step? I am so perfectly imperfect you guys!! But in all my hang ups  I have going on...I still have to stop and ask why not me Lord?

I know a little girl in high school (well she isn't so little anymore...) that I babysat for years and years! This precious Christ loving girl has a brain tumor! Why not me? Why does that have to happen to her?

Another friend (I know...I have two, don't worry!) is struggling with major headache issues and is seeing a neurologist soon...why not me Lord?

I want so badly for everyone around me to be happy, healthy and content! So why can't I take these things from them and make it all better? Well...A) that would make me God and uh...so not Him! B) God has put these things in their life to help write their story. When they get on the other side of these struggles they will have such a story to share and God will be able to get the glory and hopefully someone will be touched by it.

I have countless people say almost on a daily basis to me "why are you not married?" or "I am so ready for you to be married" or some version of that statement. I have shed many tears over this subject, talked many hours with God over this subject, may or may not had some harsh words with God over this subject and have even laughed it off at times....but the answer is so simple!!!! He is writing my story. HE is giving me a story so that one day when I am old(er) and a girl is stressing about not "finding Mr. Right" and having 2.5 kids by 26.... I can sit with her and tell her the story God wrote for me.  I can tell her of all the uh...not so great guys who I could have settled for along the way but how thankful I am that I stayed in God's will...whatever that may be! Because you guys...when we stay in God's will life is soo much sweeter!

I don't know where you are in life...but I feel like when I get to Heaven my Story entitled "Priscilla The Girl who Finally Learned Her Lesson" will be on Oprah's Bookclub if for nothing else but the emotional rollercoster!  I just have this really funny vision of Jesus sitting down and reading my story to himself and saying..."What were you thinking?! You silly girl!! You should have just always trusted me!!

Oh boy...So the moral of this story is....God is writing a perfect story in YOU! Don't try and rush the ending or try and change it because God already has it figured out!!

I want to just wrap this post up with one of my favorite movie quotes,,,

"You is kind. You is smart. You is important."

XOXO!!