Hi Lovers!
So if you have been reading my blogs, you probably are catching on to the fact that I am a very flawed person. I have many insercurities and hang ups. I can admit it. Which afterall...isn't that the first step? I am so perfectly imperfect you guys!! But in all my hang ups I have going on...I still have to stop and ask why not me Lord?
I know a little girl in high school (well she isn't so little anymore...) that I babysat for years and years! This precious Christ loving girl has a brain tumor! Why not me? Why does that have to happen to her?
Another friend (I know...I have two, don't worry!) is struggling with major headache issues and is seeing a neurologist soon...why not me Lord?
I want so badly for everyone around me to be happy, healthy and content! So why can't I take these things from them and make it all better? Well...A) that would make me God and uh...so not Him! B) God has put these things in their life to help write their story. When they get on the other side of these struggles they will have such a story to share and God will be able to get the glory and hopefully someone will be touched by it.
I have countless people say almost on a daily basis to me "why are you not married?" or "I am so ready for you to be married" or some version of that statement. I have shed many tears over this subject, talked many hours with God over this subject, may or may not had some harsh words with God over this subject and have even laughed it off at times....but the answer is so simple!!!! He is writing my story. HE is giving me a story so that one day when I am old(er) and a girl is stressing about not "finding Mr. Right" and having 2.5 kids by 26.... I can sit with her and tell her the story God wrote for me. I can tell her of all the uh...not so great guys who I could have settled for along the way but how thankful I am that I stayed in God's will...whatever that may be! Because you guys...when we stay in God's will life is soo much sweeter!
I don't know where you are in life...but I feel like when I get to Heaven my Story entitled "Priscilla The Girl who Finally Learned Her Lesson" will be on Oprah's Bookclub if for nothing else but the emotional rollercoster! I just have this really funny vision of Jesus sitting down and reading my story to himself and saying..."What were you thinking?! You silly girl!! You should have just always trusted me!!
Oh boy...So the moral of this story is....God is writing a perfect story in YOU! Don't try and rush the ending or try and change it because God already has it figured out!!
I want to just wrap this post up with one of my favorite movie quotes,,,
"You is kind. You is smart. You is important."
XOXO!!
Monday, February 23, 2015
Sunday, February 22, 2015
What if...
Hi Lovers!
Here is a quote that I just read that absolutely floored me to the point where I felt I had my immediately create a blog about it... "If the world was blind how many people would you impress?" -unknown
WOW! you guys...we are a society that is so wrapped up in the visual. We have to be thin enough, have a big enough butt, have the proper tag on the inside of our clothes (which for the record no one ever sees!)...it's obsurd!!! Now I appreciate fashion and being girly as much...if not more than the next person. There is nothing better to me than getting all dolled up and going out. I wear dresses ALOT because they make me feel pretty. Being someone who struggles with self image when something makes me feel pretty I clinge to it. But...that does not define my heart....my heart is to serve others and to be a light in their lives. That is not something you can tell from me showing up somewhere looking like I have just spent hours and hours getting ready for said event. If the world was blind they would not be able to see what I had on...what they would be able to "see" would be my words and my actions. So it has made me really think...are my actions as beautiful as my most prized dress and heels. Most of the time yes....but I admit not all the time....I can be judgemental, irritable, and sometimes just down right unpleasant to be around.
However!! I have no excuse for my actions not always reflecting and portraying beauty. I hope that people judge me not on my stunning good looks (totally just kidding you guys!!) but on the words I speak and the actions I take. I want to be impress people by being selfless and caring not showing up somewhere in the highest fashion. I want to be judged on my words of my heart that I speak to people not the words on my shirt. Bottom line for me....it is more important for someone's day to be made because I took the time to listen to them or maybe help them with their groceries rather than someone to compliment my outfit and tell me how pretty I look.
This is so timely because we talked in Church today in both sunday school and worship service about these same lines. We are in the middle of a replace series for Lent and this week we are focusing on replacing Anxiety with Peace. We were challenged in worship to write an encouraging note or give a text to someone who you know is going through a hard time or maybe it's just someone who has been on your heart. If you are reading this I challenge you to do the same. Take one week and write a note or text to someone each day and encourage them...you never know who will be touched by your actions!
It's not easy to think outside of your physical looks. It's extremely hard not to feel judged because you don't look like the model on pg 28 of the latest addition of Vogue. I know this because I struggle every day with constantly feeling negatively judged (especially by the menfolk) for that very reason. But when everything is stripped away,,,,it's not the size of clothing you wear or who designed it but what you did for others inside those clothes be it a size 2 or size 32.
Go be a light for others!!!
ALL MY LOVE
XOXO!
Here is a quote that I just read that absolutely floored me to the point where I felt I had my immediately create a blog about it... "If the world was blind how many people would you impress?" -unknown
WOW! you guys...we are a society that is so wrapped up in the visual. We have to be thin enough, have a big enough butt, have the proper tag on the inside of our clothes (which for the record no one ever sees!)...it's obsurd!!! Now I appreciate fashion and being girly as much...if not more than the next person. There is nothing better to me than getting all dolled up and going out. I wear dresses ALOT because they make me feel pretty. Being someone who struggles with self image when something makes me feel pretty I clinge to it. But...that does not define my heart....my heart is to serve others and to be a light in their lives. That is not something you can tell from me showing up somewhere looking like I have just spent hours and hours getting ready for said event. If the world was blind they would not be able to see what I had on...what they would be able to "see" would be my words and my actions. So it has made me really think...are my actions as beautiful as my most prized dress and heels. Most of the time yes....but I admit not all the time....I can be judgemental, irritable, and sometimes just down right unpleasant to be around.
However!! I have no excuse for my actions not always reflecting and portraying beauty. I hope that people judge me not on my stunning good looks (totally just kidding you guys!!) but on the words I speak and the actions I take. I want to be impress people by being selfless and caring not showing up somewhere in the highest fashion. I want to be judged on my words of my heart that I speak to people not the words on my shirt. Bottom line for me....it is more important for someone's day to be made because I took the time to listen to them or maybe help them with their groceries rather than someone to compliment my outfit and tell me how pretty I look.
This is so timely because we talked in Church today in both sunday school and worship service about these same lines. We are in the middle of a replace series for Lent and this week we are focusing on replacing Anxiety with Peace. We were challenged in worship to write an encouraging note or give a text to someone who you know is going through a hard time or maybe it's just someone who has been on your heart. If you are reading this I challenge you to do the same. Take one week and write a note or text to someone each day and encourage them...you never know who will be touched by your actions!
It's not easy to think outside of your physical looks. It's extremely hard not to feel judged because you don't look like the model on pg 28 of the latest addition of Vogue. I know this because I struggle every day with constantly feeling negatively judged (especially by the menfolk) for that very reason. But when everything is stripped away,,,,it's not the size of clothing you wear or who designed it but what you did for others inside those clothes be it a size 2 or size 32.
Go be a light for others!!!
ALL MY LOVE
XOXO!
Saturday, February 21, 2015
Things that make you say....HUMPH!
Hi Lovers!
Everyone has their own struggles. Some struggle with Self-Esteem, others addiction, some being in a very hurtful relationship ship. I don't know about you...but these things just make me say HUMPH!! I hate seeing people struggle...and I hate to struggle myself.
So what is my struggle you ask? HAHA...that is a really funny to ask because I have many struggles. If I were to narrow it down to one thought it would be self-worth. The way my mind works is that there is always someone better out there for the "job". I put job in quotes because I use that as a term for anything...a job as in teaching, a job as in being a friend, a job as in being a lover to someone....ect...more filling a roll. I know in my head there is always someone out there better than I am so why would someone choose me when someone else has so much more to offer? I know that is a twisted way of thinking, I have been told it's a twisted way of thinking, God and I are working that out as we speak. But that is my struggle at it's core and it makes me go HUMPH!! It's not like I want to be this way...it's not like I asked for it....so why is this my struggle...especially when I know that God has made me perfect. Psalm 139:14 says "I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." (NIV). I mean hello?! We are made perfect! There is a purpose for us going through the struggles we do. Maybe it's because we need to be able to help someone else later in life. Perhaps God has a lesson for us to learn through it but just because we struggle doesn't mean we are less than the person sitting next to us. Because NEWS FLASH....they are struggling to...don't let them fool you!!!! This is something that after 30 years I am finally starting to grasp.
Here is another verse I read one evening after I was having a really tough time....God showed me this and it instantly made me rethink why I was feeling so bad about myself. We ALL struggle ya'll...but God works in us and though us in those times.
The hard times I have gone through is where Jer 29:11 became my life verse! I am not going to post it because I want you to go look it up and read it...
We all struggle but you should never be alone! Surround yourself with friends who you can turn to when you are "in a funk" (that is my term for my friends) and need someone. I have the best inner circle of friends who I can turn to no matter my mood or struggle and they are going to be there to listen to me. If you are reading this I know you struggle...what I don't know is if you have support for those dark times...please make sure you do!
Have a great day and know you are loved!!
xoxo!!
Tuesday, February 17, 2015
Welcome Back
Hi Lovers!
Well...it seems like it has been awhile according to the ole Time Hop App! Gotta love that thing! It's like going back and reading your old diaries but like EVERYDAY!! I would love to catch you up on things if you want to induldge me....
First, is the big reason I quit blogging for a hot minute...is grad school!! Yep somewhere in the midst of life I started and finished graduate school. So now along with being a teacher...I am also a certified school counselor. The question has been brought up to many several times about when I will start looking for a job...the answer is I don't know! I am always keeping my eyes and ears out for new opportunities so who knows!! I am in major prayer about it right now and I know the Lord will direct my path as it should be.
I am up to 3 count 'em 3 nieces and nephews!! Katelyn is 5 now, Evan is 2 and Brock will be 1 in a few weeks!! Time is flying by insanely fast! This week picture is of Brock and I when he was just a teeeny tiny thing but it's one of my favorites!!
Well...it seems like it has been awhile according to the ole Time Hop App! Gotta love that thing! It's like going back and reading your old diaries but like EVERYDAY!! I would love to catch you up on things if you want to induldge me....
First, is the big reason I quit blogging for a hot minute...is grad school!! Yep somewhere in the midst of life I started and finished graduate school. So now along with being a teacher...I am also a certified school counselor. The question has been brought up to many several times about when I will start looking for a job...the answer is I don't know! I am always keeping my eyes and ears out for new opportunities so who knows!! I am in major prayer about it right now and I know the Lord will direct my path as it should be.
I am up to 3 count 'em 3 nieces and nephews!! Katelyn is 5 now, Evan is 2 and Brock will be 1 in a few weeks!! Time is flying by insanely fast! This week picture is of Brock and I when he was just a teeeny tiny thing but it's one of my favorites!!
I have some of the sweetest kiddos in my class this year! It has not been and easy road and we are by no means complete for the year but they sure do make me proud to be their teacher. A group of kids who started out so low both academically and in maturity have just blossomed into amazing young people before my eyes!! They make me so proud I even dye my hair for them...Exhibit A...if this doesn't scream love I don't know what does!!
Well...I guess that about catches you up on things...stayed tuned for less about me and more about life, love, and other mysteries I can come up with!! If you are reading this and want to hear my thoughts on whatever...leave 'em in the comments!! All my love!
XO!
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